Party all night, sleep all day!

literally just partied and slept the first september weekend, fuck yea!

On Friday (31.8.), my lovely cousin Marie arrived here and we went to my longest friends 18th birthday party. I know Sophia since first grade, and though we are not best best friends anymore, we still get along very well!

We left early on, because Marie didn't feel so well, and on our way home some guys started following us being like "hey guuurls, you out alone at this time? should we go home with you ;))" - ewww, hell no..... oO 

But they quickly left us alone again, luckily!

Next morning we went to Marie's place then, also visiting my aunt and my sweet younger cousin Lilly ♥ 

While Mary went back to sleep again, Lilly and I went to Weilburg, where they have an old castle, where we took some pictures, also at the river Lahn and it was my first ever ride in a Peugot convertible that day, what an epic feeling! 

Weilburg has some awesome architecture, this bridge is only one example. There's loads of old buildings, most of them renovated and they look really fancy! 

 I mean, school sucks, but those nice old school buildings, I really like them loads.

Imagine living there, in such an old building!

Later that night Marie and I went to.... idek. something with L....? a tiny tiny village, like all of the villages there. I met her best friend Mo and 2 other boys, Patrick and Marc Kevin, and I met Kim who i got to know almost 2 years ago again! (I totally forgot what she looked like, because i was drunk when i got to know her. I knew that i knew her and she was nice, but didn't exactly know who she was OTL) But anyways Kim is amazing, so is Mo, Patrick is nice, and Marc Kevin is just plain weird and.... well he creeped the fuck out of me. 

We were at Marc's and Patrick's Place at first, drinking the stuff we bought before, with me almost choking on my vodka-orange because someone said something funny... i couldn't breath anymore, omg DX

I wish I had taken my camera with me that night actually, but I didn't... the party in L. was some annual festivity at an old castle ruin.... it was nice there, really nice!

Next year, maybe I'll go again and take the camera then!

We had such a fun evening there, dancing to that totally stupid music, and mary almost falling into the Lahn (I swear she did, she wanted to sit on the wall there but.... i tried to save her and got kicked on my chin as a reward, fu.. it still hurts.... XDD)

In the end we had such a great time, it was so sad we had to leave already. I hope I can get there soon again!

Sunday, we didn't do anything though. we slept, Lilly and I played on her Wii and then we left in the evening. 

*sigh*

Distance is a bitch! >.<

I miss everyone loads!

♥

*wrote the date cuz it's  more than a week ago already^^

Back to school~

Today was the first day of school again!

this. is. my. timetable.

idek if i like that or not...

today i had english advanced course, history advanced course and art....

I have history at another school, i quite like it, my friend from that school, a friend from my school, and my baby cousin are in my course. 

Hah. cousin. you were mean to me. watch out nau!

hmmm idek bout english. i don't know many people in that course, 

so i'm still sitting alone, like i've been a lot last year, but i'll find friends there eventually, 

also it's probably good i have noone to talk to so i'll focus on the lessons!

Art is. ugh i hate that teacher. he never likes what i do i think haha :D

but i think the year started out better than the last one and im sitting next to nice people!

I wonder what tomorrow is going to be like. 

*sigh*

I miss my holidays. I miss fangirling way too much^^

oh also, GD's teaser for the  "ONE OF A KIND" MV came out! 

I freaked out when I saw it this morning before school

Still don't know what I'm thinking bout his hair.

spaghetti- 

but still

one of a kind is amaaazinG!

'yes sir, i'm one of a kind' ♪

Düsseldorf, finally again!

On Monday, I finally went to Düsseldorf again, with Jasmin :3

I haven't been there for a long time now....

I needed to buy new rice and curry and algues anyways! I just bought food again *sigh*

I wanted to buy KERA but it was too expensive this time~

I tried to make an effort on my outfit, but I don't have many nice clothes...

and i need to lose weight, ugh. 

and my fringe looked weird the whole day. ^^

So here are some photos though :3

Daifuku... hmmm... I tried it for the second time now, I'm still not too sure what to think about it^^

My very own cute Bento Box <33

Jassi Bro <3 

Vacation at the Sea ♥

Just when I came back from Hamburg, I had to pack my suitcase again for a week at the sea with mommy!
The town we've been at is called Hooksiel, and it's basically a 2nd home to me.
The first time I've been there I was only 9 month old, and from then on i've been there every year until my parents divorced when I was 10. I went there again in 2008 and then again this year!
It as a nice week, no internet, only the tv, and i didn't even watch it a lot, but that tv had arirang and nhk so when i watched, i watched these! i've seen kawaii international with akira (asdaskje akira ♥) and i've seen some live event with SHINee as well, and a L'arc~en~ciel live, which was amaaazing!

I actually don't know what to write anymore, since really nothing happened.
Mommy and I went to Schillig, for a small kite-festival. We also went to Jever and Wilhelmshaven but there was really nothing so yea... we only watched tv, went to the beach and did some cycling.... Oh oh the beach was nice! the weather was not too bad and i could swin in the sea...! One day it rained a bit, but after the rain had stopped the water overall was actually higher and the waves were as well, so that for the first time that i can remember i was acutally not able to touch the ground with my feet only a few meters after going into the sea~ It was so much fun to swim with these waves ^w^

sheeeeee~ep! It was glaring at me. 

Think it was mad because it had to stand up and walk out of my way :D

my lovely small cutie pie kite :3

Shipwreck in the wadden sea @Schillig.

(will upload edited & more photos on my facebook if i ever get out of lazyness kingdom.)

I am NOT going to believe that this forest grew just like that.

That's impossible!

My new Bikini! And not only new, but also the first Bikini i wore in about 10 years!

I was so insecure about my body! Now I am a little happier with it ^w^

totes agressive crab here. seriously tried to attack me because i wanted to save it. hmph.

♥

Hamburg ♥

Hiya, now that I'm finally back from all my vacations, I will finally write my entry about my trip to Hamburg where I visited my uncle and cousin and met loads of wonderful people! and also one about my nice time at the north-sea! :)

In Hamburg,
I already met my lovely cousin and uncle right at the train station, but we didn't do much on thursday, just unpacking and that was it.
 On Friday, I met up with Mary and her best friend Flo, who is also a friend from me for a few years now. We went to the Mönckebergstraße, went to Saturn, where I bought Jedward's Young Love Album and a top from Pimkie, and then later Mary and I took cute pictures in a photobooth together :3

We also visited Mary's grandma, who I haven't seen in aaaages I think, and I met my other cousin, Lilly, and the other girls her granny babysits.
We still stayed there for quite a while and then went back to my uncle's place.
Mary actually lives at her grandma's place when in Hamburg, I live at her dad's but that night she joined me and we stayed awake on the laptops a while and had a really fun time. :3
Saturday morning me and my uncle went shopping on the Mönckebergstraße once again and I got some nice shirts (did I ever say how much i love Monki? It's the best shop ever!)
Later that day Mary and I went to the cinema, to watch The Five-Year engegement, and afterwards met someone we got to know on the internet actually!
He and his friend from Switzerland are on a journey through Europe right now, and they stopped in Hamburg, where we finally met up after years of talking online!
We went on the Kies and had loads of fun until the morning came.
Actually, we got off the subway at the Landungsbrücken, drank a little and went up to the Kiez. We also met a guy called Dude on the way (AND IT WAS HIS REAL NAME! IT WAS WRITTING IN HIS ID CARD!ajskd!) xD He was pretty cool and stayed with us the whole night, as well as the boys host Kristina (since the boys did this 'couch surfing' thing)
We went to c bar called the Clochard (my uncle told us about it.... such an ugly place) we stayed there for a while and talked and drank a bit, and later went to some club, idek where it was exactly, and danced till the morning came :D
Then at 6am we went to the Fischmarkt and at 8 finally went home.
My uncle was so mad when I came back, because he didn't know I'd be gone SO LONG and yea... I got 3 short hours of sleep after that, and then I had to clean up, as a punishment :D

Then we went to sea the big boat that was in the Hafencity that day!

 Queen Mary II

Another huge boat was in Hamburg, the Queen Elizabeth, but it was further away, up in Altona, so we didn't see it in the morning. Only in the evening, when my cousin and I went to see the "Goodbye" fireworks both ships were in the Hafencity, it was so awesome! I wish i could've just gone on board and stayed there!

Queen Elizabeth

The firework was nice, but it was still a little too bright outside, wish they would've made them later.

Actually on monday, the boys from Switzerland should've taken their train to poland, but they missed it (idiots. xD) and mary and i waited to say bye at the train station and these 2 didn't even come. :D

Later, after realising they had overslept, i met up with my younger cousin, Lilly ♥! we went to eat some ice cream, together with my uncle, and at his apartment played to games with mary and him and ate dinner together!

Later i went to Lilly and marys grandma's place, where i played a lot with Lilly on the playground right outside, and Mary and I met up with the Swiss guys again. We stayed until 3 am or something, and we had such a great time! Then we said bye because the boys had to sleep - in order to wake up in time for the next train the next day :D

Unfortunatley, it was raining when mary and I went home and we got soaked wet, and had to wait in the rain for the first train to come for like 2 hours, an eternity!

I slept at mary's grandma's place this night, but well, we didn't get much sleep anyways, because this time it was mary's job to wake up the boys to get the train. so we met them again just a few hours after saying bye, to say bye again. I was honestly so sad, we had so much fun, and noone knows when we might be seeing each other again :'(

Just after the guys left I also had to say bye to mary, and another few hours later i had to leave Hamburg completely, take my train home.

That were too many goodbyes for one day, i came home and fell into bed, being utterly depressed. *sob*

I had the best time EVER in Hamburg~ 

♥

Jedward weekend ~ Team Flower Power~

After School finally ended on friday, lovely Kristina went to visit me, and took me to the central station in Dortmund, where we would finally meet our friends Lea and Julia from the Jedward Fandom! They were coming to visit [me] because I was alone at home anyways [I told my mom to leave for the weekend^^] and the Jedward concert was the next day! It was so exciting to meet them! Last time I saw Lea was in January, and I never met Julia before!

thanks Kristina for the picture~

don't mind the wrong link on the picture as i have changed my url quite a lot in the past years

thanks Krissii :)

We met them at the central station and went home, where we had dinner and planned everything for the next day - we woke up at 5am. Ughhh so early!
We got ready and took the train to Düsseldorf, though it didn't quite go as planned and we had to go to dortmund first. ya so much drama, krisiboo even fell :/
But, we still arrived at Düsseldorf Airport BEFORE the twins did, oh yea!^^

Oh Edward, you beautiful human being, it's incredible how much I love you.

And the moment when Edward stood right in front of me and I almost finally got a Jedhug and maybe a pic or/and signature - there was Liam that told him to leave the building. 

So ofc, all fans ran outside. Again, I was pretty close to Edward, when Liam decided to push all the fans again pretty violently, to get to him.

Gosh I know that man has to do his job, but stepping on peoples feet, hitting their breast or ramming his elbow into their ribs is not a habit he should keep, srsly.

So anyways, Liam got through to Edward, told him to get in the bus, and they left - and so did we. Went to the train station at the airport and took the next train to Dortmund, so tiring. There, the first thing we did was getting food at McDonalds, and then went to the hall. 

Gosh it was so boring at the hall, seriously, everyone was just sitting around waiting, being bored as fuck, and the little children ran around screaming. wtf.

the fab banner~

After what seemed hours of waiting and collecting signatures on my fab fanbanner which the twins didn't even get, we were finally let into the hall. 

It was a big disappointment in my eyes though. I knew it would be seated, because the Stadium in which the concert originally was supposed to take place at was seated as well and we payed for seats but still. I imagined it to be at least a little... better. The seats were meeeeeters away from the stage, and basically we were further away then imagined. We were allowed to stand up during the concert, but we were not allowed to leave the rows of seats or stand up on the seats(which Julia and I did nonetheless^^)

Seriously, I was so bad,  i felt so sad and kinda depressed. 

really, they should've just taken the seats away then, it would've been a thousand times better. Julia and I talked to one of the security people and he even agreed with us, saying that he thiks it sucks as well but he unfortunately can't change anything as well. 

Seriously, I think everyone hated it. Who even got that stupid idea?

And ofc the twins barely saw the banner like that and there was no way of passing it to them. -.-

/rant over.

Oh, I also took some pictures of the actual concert, you can find them here, as well as videos and other random fanart/stuff that's got to do with the twins^^!

After the concert, we left the hall and found out that the twins had already left as well, so we hurried to the subway station. On our way we saw some of the people visiting the Flower Power Party in the big Westfalenhalle.

Wish I could've joined them. ☺ 

haha ;D 

In the end the 4 of us decided to call ourselves Team Flower Power now, since the name "team awesome" seemed to be in use in the fandom already.

so, we hurried to the station, took the next train to düsseldorf and hoped to still see the twins, and maybe give them my banner as well - but unfortunately, they had already checked in when we arrived. So sad, I've been waiting for this day for month now, have been so excited, and now - well nothing happend. 

It was so depressing, really.

In the end we went home again, where we then made Pizza at 2am, just to go to sleep seconds later. We ate the pizza in the morning, as breakfast then XD 

We had to wake up early once again as well, because we needed to take the girls Dortmund Central Station, they left us again.

And then, something happend. 

The Unfollowing.

As we were on the train the twins tweeted it.

They would unfollow all the fans they previously follwed.

And guess what?

We partied.

I would've loved to get a follow from the twins one day, but seriously, it's way better this way. That makes all the fans equal again. Sure, the people followed complain, that it might not change anything, but it actually does. I've seen loads of people that seemed to feel all high and mighty just cause the got a follow, people that would almost act as if the knew the twins. It was the best idea ever!

But our joy left when we took the girls to their trains, and went back home. Kristina left as well, and as I set alone at home I felt terribly lonely. 

Giiiiirls, come back soon! >.<

Team Flower Power will reunite so soon, luckily, on august 25th! Ahhhh~ Can't wait to have a good time with them!

♥

Conclusion School Year & Working experience

So. last week the school year has officially ended, and now it's holiday time!

I thought since this was all a really exciting year for me, I should write some kind of conclusion post & here it is.

After I failed last year and needed to completely repeat a whole year, I came into a new class with loads of people I didn't know. In my whole year, of people who are all 2 years younger than me, there was only one person i know, and I felt really lonely at the beginning. It was hard to get used to the situation, and I mostly stayed away from the new people and only talked to my friends from before.

I just thought that I don't even want to find any friends in my new class. Since I had a huge fight with a person very important to me just before holidays last year, and I had troubles with other friends as well, I thought "If I don't make new friends, there will be no new people to hurt me." Because obviously fights and stuff with your friends is loads worse than bullying. And I know what I'm talking bout, srsly.

Anways, the first 2 month have been especially hard for me and I was just really unhappy with the whole situation. Then I saw Jedward live, and that changed most of my life - idk why, they have such a big impact on my life! I became happier over all, and more optimistic, and I started talking more to the people in school, and I made a few friends as well! In february i've been to the birthday of a classmate, and it was the first time i was invited by my new classmates, it made me so so happy!

Also, I got so much better in school than I've ever been before! My grade point average (is that the right way of saying? XD) is 2.7 so rreally not bad at all! I'm so proud - and I even wanna be better next year! It feels good <3

The year was one of the best things that could ever happen to me - though I'm really gonna miss my friends from my old year when they finish school next year :'(

Anyways, I'm excited to start the new school year with all these nice people i met this year again!

And now, to the working experience.

I had to work in a book store for 2 weeks. I've already worked in 2 other bookstores before, because no photographer seems to want me :/

Anways, I love books, and I could always kinda work close to the teenagers/fantasy books and i loved it.

The people there were really nice, and I got along so well with everyone, it was awesome.

The only problem: It was so fuckin exhausing. I swear, you won't believe how heavy books are, and you have to bow down, take them, and put them somewhere in the shelves, which are already packed with books, so you need to move them ALL around to put other books there and it's really just physically exhausting work. I was even allowed to do a little less work because the others said I shouldn't ruin my back, they've already all ruined theirs anyways... D:

It was fun and all, and it was really not too bad, nothing I could really complain about.

But it is DEFINATELY not what i want to do later. no.

But I got a 15€ book voucher afterwards. only problem: the book i want comes out in september. german translators, hurry the fuck up.

(I'd buy it english, but i've got all the other books in german and it would look so nice in my shelve. i will buy all the english ones later anyways~)

♥